well, today made me realise some things
now i know that i will jerk while i sleep.
why? dunno. i have no idea bout that until nana told me so
maybe its cause im too tired or something?
or maybe it only happens when i sleep upright instead of lying?
oh yea, and work is tiring
pure tiring this 2 days
i thin i use too much strength the wrong way
now my back ache
the back bone there de muscle like kena stretched too much.
sleep also feel gao weh
whole day move things, like those house movers that you call to help you move your house and furniture like that.
move until there pain there bleed
knn sia.
ya KOI again
recently got this KOI craze huh
oh ya! i managed to stole on polo tee home! :)
this one is a nicer one!

okay okay, lets say out what i was thinking then
well, i study in a science course.
yea, a 100% SCIENCE COURSE.
and yes, I AM A SCIENCE STUDENT.
but i dont think i look/seem/behave like one.
for a simple reason
i think i've got more things to do (which i haven even touch) than a course with maybe 70% or less science modules
yea, and i looked so relax when people around me are all stressing up with projects, studies and assignments
more ever, what makes things worst is that i cant believe i cant 100% know, understand and interpret a simple sentence in the sentence i read just now
yea, im a science student, and if i ever asked anyone from my course and ask him/her what that sentence is about, everybody would know how to explain everything
i guess only me dont know anything
and im thinking, where can i go after i graduate
people say as long as you get the diploma, people dosent look at your gpa unless university admission.
but today, i realise that logically thinking, this arent the case for a science student
so what if you get a diploma with a gpa of 1.0?
even if i manage to get a work, i cant perform well!
i dont even know the basics till now.
i think if the company is on retrenchment, the first one they will sack is me.
im not being pessimistic, but im just facing the facts of the real world
but what can i do now?
yea, there is a lot i can do now, whether i want to start it or not only.