i feel guilty..
for living my life the way i wanted and not caring about the people around me..
for living my life like a moon, going round and round the same planet, knowing you will never reach the planet due to gravity nature and sorts
but sorries arent me. they cant change anything
actions can

but whether or not i will take actions is another thing
i want to live my life as a rich person with all my needs and wants fulfilled
but it always dosent seem to be the case

after living my life for 17 years, i realise how impactful money is
its an invention that changes people, making people greedy
and for me, i have to admit, i am a human
and most of the time, i tried to push money aside
i wanted a friendship, or something more valuable and precious than money
and at the same time, i wanted money too.
sounds kinda weird, but well.....

i brought the best and nicest memories with me..

its been so long since i last update my blog
well, kinda busy this few days
err, ok la, i admit, sometimes is cos i lazy
but its also cos i working this few days, thats why :)
sunday i work, continued to monday without sleeping
actually got one hour of sleep de, but just cant sleep
then monday work until 5 pm
actually wna go band after that, but mr tan sick never come, and i damn tired, so i didnt went
tuesday worked 7, until like 12midnight
then wednesday, which is yesterday \, worked from 9 to 0230am
today is rest day! :D
at least i will have a day to rest my leg so that i can tarhan next week
tml will be work again, then saturday rest!
saturday is the 'go bedok buy thing' day :)
need to buy socks, shoe and pants if possible
then sunday work again, all the way until wed
thiursday rest and friday again until sunday!
i think i will earn quite a lot of money :)
ha! well, post until here ba!! TATA!! :)

work is something that could make you throw aside everything else
and music is something that makes you remember the things you threw aside
in the end, it goes back to square one...

time to blog!
well, what have i been doing for the last few days? actually i also forgot what i did on friday liao
saturday i went working at morning 9
then until 1720, i was asked by the stupid ha ba gou to either go cut my hair or go home
bloody hell, everytime i work i also wax my hair until i no more side burn he still catch me and pul down my side burn. idiot!
so i went to meet derrick, katsu and kelvin and went to IT fair
bought a 320GB hard disk from hermawan with my one day old money. tsk!
then went pool and then took mrt home
realised i really need to spent a lot on topping up of my card when i dont have concession
after reporting home i went aljunied mac to wait for people
first came was andrina, then was jiahui, derrick
then yuliana after her work
we planned to ton there until morning
so we talk talk talk
but i talk a bit only jiu tired liao
in the end become they 4 talk then i went to take a nap
until 4am, when the macdonald menu changed
i was so happy!
cause i was waiting for it to change ma :D
ate deluxe breakfast!!
ok, a bit regret eating that cos for wtice when i ate the hotcakes, i feel like shitting
so next time i shall not eat that anymore
went to shit and i like bombing the whole toilet like that. tsk tsk.
then went to playground to chat a while before asking them to go home cos i too tired
in the end went home at 5 something and slept until 2 when that stupid vege called me ask me wake up
then ate and bathe before heading down to cini to meet them
i was late, cos we are suppose to meet at 3
then i reach like 1540 or something like that
and im the earliest person there la!! TSK!!
and cos i took bus 5 there, so i need walk from far east
then cos its rainning, so i like walking very very cautiously cos i scared i fell down
so, in the end when the 5 of us met (again), we went pastamania for andrina, derrick and yuli to fill their stomach
then went to see the timing of nodame in cathay
but all fell until 11 something de
so went walking to Plaza sing instead
and i realised everything related to outings always ended up in plaza sing
had quite a dispute before we decided to buy nodame tickets in FIRST ROW!!!!
omg.. when we watch is like.. omg..
but the show quite nice la
the orchestra quite good! love the songs :)
by the time we watch finish is like 8 something?
then had quite a while before deciding to eat at food court
by the time we eat finish is like 10
then bussed home
well, till here! tml still need to fetch my daddy ay like 11 something
so need wake up early :(

you didnt know
now, when i get to familiar places, i did the usual thing i always will do with you

Do you think i care what the hell you've said? no.
Do you think i care if i am pronounce a bastard? no.
Do you think i didnt thought this would happen? no.

please, you just made me think i am so much a genius to ever predict a person's move
i've never told anybody MY very own story
even to my close and best friends
no one ever knew, even people who thought they knew
and you know whats the reason? because i am tired looking at that mask and i just wanna put an end to this
i am seriously tired looking through that bloody thing
and i dont want to take a job of an advisor of a General at war
i've got quite an open eye experience at things
so, thanks. you thought me a lot, congratulate yourself for that
so this is my last sentence to you ever on my blog:
BYE! and HAVE FUN!

guess what, i've predicted your next move.
i dont want things to go this way, but too bad
you started this and you know me
i HATE to be stepped on.
too bad, i've already made this the last post i will ever made on my blog for this, wasted
but it also means you are free to hit me with anything now leh! :)
somehow, i feel so happy and joyous now. :D
one word to describe me now, bastard! HAHAHA!!
but who cares, i am already proclaimed one to some of your friends and you yourself already
do you think i give a damn, NO!! HAHAHA!!! :DD

hi! its been long since i blogged
cos i was working on tuesday and wednesday
and now i feel damn good
althought i didnt had much sleep, but i was so glad that i earn bout 200 in 2 days! :)
and work those 2 days were quite slacky
first day was doing breakout room
and i was spamming hot chocolate that day
then the second day was at ballroom doing the sports event
also damn slack
spent half of my day walking round and round in circles doing nothing
the only thing i did was to change ash trays, help one booth take their things up to the lobby and help with doing the room service order
nothing more
so damn slack la!
but i think i need to buy new shoes liao
my shoe spoil liao
now wear that time walk will pain

oh, and i've been farting a lot for the last 2 days
i guess cos i anyhow eat and drink
cos this 2 days de event can drink and eat
so dont are de
whatever can eat can drink all go in to my mouth
like one second hot choco, then 10 seconds later is mango juice
well, but i was so glad that i could earn my money so easily
lasy time is damn damn hiong de lo
and im back to the busy days! :)
everyday is either band, work, or go out with friends
but tml i think im staying at home ba
like nothing do de
well, i think i will post till here! maybe i will post again tomorrow :)
tata~~

11.11

hihi! kinda long since i last posted on my blog
well, i've been kinda busy in a way
sat went to mrs teo's house for a visit
its a sort of yearly thing for our class
crapped with her and talked about the bad days of our secondary school life
talk until she said this 'waa, actually after hearing this your class isnt that good a class'
HAHA!! well, thats us!
then we splited into 2 cabs to janet's house
had some tv there then BBQ! :)
didnt really ate much though
just some satay and hotdog and chicken wings only
then was a trip outside to nearby her house to eat some frosty thing
kinda nice, but the milk frost a bit no taste, i only taste until the strawberry
then was back to her house for phototaking before drinking session
it started with beer, then to absolut vodka
played games and the loser drinks
for texas is the winner drink :D
until when every bit of alcohol finishes, i feel myself at the limit liao
anymore and i would go drunk
then was talking session and at 4, i wasnt in dreamland
the reason why is cause im having heavy blocking nose and i couldnt sleep
until like 4 something 5 then i sleep
then was morning called up at 6
and batheddd and then facebooked a while before leaving her house at 7 to take bus to my work place
reached at like 8 and spent some time sitting at the toilet to cultivate my shit to come out
then was breakfast before working
and i can say work is damn damn damn damn slack!!!
slack until like shit i tell you!
damn slack!
until me and chen sheng went to polish the signboard frame
went for KFC session after work
and its peng kiat's last day at work
after that went home and updated myself on my laptop before sleeping

well, thats about all for my busy days
for today will be band later
the tuesday will work, if dismiss early will go find ritz people for cycling!! :)
wednesday work again
omg! the days of chionging of work is coming back!! im gonna earn lots of money! WOO~~
then thurs is band
friday is nothing on
sat is work and sun is nothing on
monday is band and tues is metting up with ritz people to pulau ubin!! :)
ok, time to end my post!! tata~~

living in memories

[we are the world] haiti; its a nice song
somehow, its a song that makes influence on people
i liked this kind of songs

anyway, had band ytd after like one month
freshman year ones are starting to enter the band
it will become a totally new atmosphere again
and today's band meeting again
gonna decide when to cut practices, after that i maybe will have more time working
and hopefully they give me more days to work
gonna buy lots of things :)
mummy said she giving me 50bucks to buy berms, so i will have like 4 more berms! :)
maybe can ask kelvin out again, then we can shop and talk. :)
i realise everytime i wna buy clothes i will ask him out, a bit gay la, but guys you know, somehow will have guys stuff to talk, right kelvin?? :DD
and i also wna buy a bagpack! :) maybe a leather one!
plus one more shoulder bag!! those big big one, not so female de, then can put lots of shit inside. :)
but i think shoulder bag should be much later than buy la.
oh! and say until buying things, i found my ear ring yesterday!! :)
go glad about it, cos its like lost a few months liao, that time new year i wna wear then tried to find also cannot find

waa, this few days stucking at home is bad man!
like totally no life, everyday watch movie
and say until movie, i haven wattch noname
the one azri said very nice and must watch de
gonna watch that like soon too
and house also, its kinda nice, but i think if i ever tried hard to learn my bio stuffs, the show will be even nicer
but anyway, i wna have a life, but not now..

oh! and sometime when i feel like it, im gonna download new songs!! :)
i dunno if i wna download latest hits english songs, cos i haven been updating that for like more than half a year now
which means my playlist is like over due half a year
but i know if i ever start shasing, i think i will invest quite a lot of time on it
maybe i'll see how, but i just wna expand my playlist
so it will have more variety
cos some songs is like every tiem kena picked by the player and keep on playing
very sian de

ok, shall post till here, gonna bathe now :)
tata~

We Are The World 25 For Haiti Lyrics

[Justin Bieber]
There comes a time
When we heed a certain call
[Nicole Scherzinger & Jennifer Hudson]
When the world must come together as one
[Jennifer Hudson]
There are people dying
[Jennifer Nettles]
And it’s time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all
[Josh Groban]
We can’t go on
Pretending day by day
[Tony Bennet]
that someone, somehow will soon make a change
[Mary J Blige]
We are all a part of
God’s great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need

[Chorus]
[Michael Jackson]
We are the world
We are the children
[Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Barbra Streisand]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me

[Miley Cyrus]
Send them your heart
So they’ll know that someone cares
[Enrique Iglesias]
so their cries for help
will not be in vain
[Nicole Scherzinger]
We can’t let them suffer
no we cannot turn away
[Jamie Foxx]
Right now they need a helping hand
[Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
We are the Children
[Adam Levine]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so lets start giving
[Pink]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[BeBe Winans]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me

[Michael Jackson]
When you’re down and out
There seems no hope at all
[Usher]
But if you just believe
There’s no way we can fall
[Celine Dion]
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change can only come
[Fergie]
When we stand together as one

[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Nick Jonas]
Got to start giving
[All]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[Toni Braxton]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Mary Mary]
We are the world
We are the children
[Tony Bennet]
Its for the children
[Isaac Slade]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
[Toni Braxton]
So lets start giving

[Lil Wayne]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me

[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Akon]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we make a better day
Just you and me

[T-Pain]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Jamie Foxx imitating Ray Charles]
Choice were making
saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me

[Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]
We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
lyrics courtesy of www.killerhiphop.com
Love the whole planet sing it along
[Wyclef]
CABARETT

[Chorus - All]

[Kanye West]
Everyday citizens
everybody pitching in

[Singing - Children & Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo

[Will-I-Am]
You and I
You and I
[Kanye West]
Uh, 12 days no water
whats your will to live?
[Will-I-Am]
we amplified the love we watching multiply
[Kanye West]
Feeling like the Worlds end
we can make the World win
[Will-I-Am]
Like Katrina, Africa, Indonesia
and now Haiti needs us, the need us, they need us

[Chorus - All]
[Wyclef Jean]
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay

well well, time to blog..
been kinda frustrated with the coordinator in ritz
only give me work 2 days when i can work 5 days in a week
so miss the previous coordinator..
actually life's kinda boring now, especially when you arent really working
i like the days when im working
its gives me money to spend on myself, friends to joke to and brothers that makes me enjoy my hard day there

ah.. well well, band tomorrow
kinda like so long since last band practice
think got like one month le ba?
but i think the atmosphere now will be so much different

and i think i have some random resolutions in my mind
1. to stop drinking sugar or carbonated water everyday, including bandung
2. to stop eating kinder bueno everyday
3. to stop having cravings for food
well well, sounds kinda random, but when you are not working, its better to stay away from those food
its damn damn fattening
bad for health

oh ya! and im actually finding new themes for my windows 7 destop background theme
i had crime scene theme and music theme, now i dunno what theme i want to find

i realise im having some temptation of downloading games on my laptop for myself to play
but i actually stopped myself from doing that
becoming a game addict is no good and no life
i want to socialise with people, but not in the near future
until i find myself haveing more money then i will do that :)
oh ya, and say until this
gonna have trunpet section outing soon!!! :)

ok, so here come the part on my gad damn logic
you know what? everybody has unimaginable powers; powers that makes the impossible possible
but when it concerns 2 parties, it will take 2 hands to clap
to make the impossible possible, 2 parties must work hand in hand, decide on the same thing, having the same goal, the same mindset, the same heart
those are the key ingredients for making a successful revival
both have to do their part..
in this case, its never about different positions
its never about 'im a girl, those are not the things i do, only guy do those things'
when only one party is giving a 100% and the other party wasnt giving support, whether moral or physical support, the the whole thing would fail
to go against the flow of nature, you will need at least some moral support
without that, you sure lose
its like a soccer match without fans, you lose moral, and you give up

never miss the chance to say out whats inside your heart / never missing the chance to say i love you
yes, its true, thats the way to live life without regrets
but its always easier said than done
thats why living life without regrets is one big everyday challenge

ok, i think im actually talking craps and just some boring and random stuffs that's on my head
sorry for this boring post, shall go now! tata~~

i thought we sort of had a promise to each other..
or is it only me who is treating it as a promise?

its dying..
revive it!!! help me..

just came back from CCA camp
well, had quite a lot of fun there, made lots of new friends
they teach you on how to understand yourself better and what kind of leader you exactly are
and i realise i am a D type of leader
well, maybe i shouldnt be so happy about being that kind of leader, but dunno why, i just seems so happy i am that kind
i just find it unique in me :)

ok, so, what have i achieve during this 2 days of camp?
hmm... actually i also dunno
i only know i made quite a number of friends
and i've enjoyed all the games i've played
and that i have enjoyed my stay in there
so, what else did i accomplish during the camp?
oh! i watched 'we were soldiers'
damn nice movie! totally loved it!! :)
and i think next time i can reuse some games that i've played for rondeau camp maybe??

well, lets post some random things on my mind right now
you know why retards are much happier?
here's the answer given by me
its because they dint think so much
they live their life every single day to their fullest, without any worries
and again, to reverse the statement, it actually mean this;
thinking too much everyday will just make you feel more sad, depress, stress and more stress
i think im one who thinks too much
but sometimes i wish it was because i think too much and not because i was right in my thoughts
sometimes i was right in my thoughts, but certainly i dont wish for this time
ok, i think im drifting away from the topic more and more
why i would think of this is that actually when i doont think of my responsibility of my role in band, i would only have one task in hand to do
but when i think more and more, im starting to have even more and more things that i need to do
its like im doing nothing but finding troubles for myself
sometimes, i dont carry out my own responsibilities.. i push them aside
i am one person who dont carry out his responsibilities as a student to work hard and study hard and excel
but i could say that im one who knows that whatever responsibilities i have, i would classify them under things that feel important and impactful on my life, and things that are not so important to me

i think i will start work tomorrow
for now, i just wna rest..

it seems that i could never reach you..