spent my day ytd at downtowneast chalet with ritz buddies
a lot of people came though, and some of them i dont even know de
but then there were people that i know also :)
so, actually i was suppose to meet those people at 2 in the afternoon, but i woke up at 2 instead cos i slept at 4 something the previous night

ok,before that, lets talk about the day before, i had OT until 0330 and my cab was at 4
so, the cab sent me home and then when i open the wooden door that time i realise the wooden door was locked
and only mummy had access to the key of the lock from the outside since only she has the key
normally when everybody's at home in the night, we will lock the door from the inside
but then tonight dunno who went to lock the door before i came back, so i was like stuck outside the house
then i had was thinking whether i want go bedok reservoir de mac to spent my remaining night
but i thought maybe i can msg me mum see whether she awake
and luckily she was awake and opened the door for me :)

ok, come back to the topic
i woke up at 2 and went to bathe and then to bedok to cut hair before heading to white sands to meet them
but i thought my hair was a bit weird now
so long since i ever had such a short hair on the my top to the extend that i can spike it
but my side burn was long, and it feels weird, cos it will start to curl. :(
then my fringe got a cut too :(
it wasnt a nice one
i didnt ask the stupid hairdresser to cut my fringe thinner and she cut it! tsk!
ok, never mind, so, meet with people and had 2 trolleys of goods pushed from white sands to downtown
played a bit of gambling (woops!!) before starting the fire and then the dinner drinking
but well, i lost quite a bit if money, like maybe 2 bucks something?
then after that was drinking the absolute vodka that hong wei brought
and then beer too
and i realise i still prefer carlsberg
ok, actually i wont prefer beer, cos i dont want the beer stomach
but anyway, we actually intended to go pool
but then peng kiat's wallet was lost somehow and we looked around to find it
and in the end, guess what..
we guys ended up tao pok-ing people in the bed =.=
after that we didnt managed to find, but still went for pool
but pool closed and their last game is liked at 12 something
so we went arcade for a while before heading back for the second round of gambling
this time i lost all my coins, and decided niit to play anymore
until they started playing this game called 'in between'
i thought it was a good game to gain back all my lost money
and that stupid kok heng
seriously, he got the sueh mouth, and the affinity with the number 2, especially diamond 2
and its what kept us laughing while losing/winning money
he a damn entertainer!
i had to salute him, i think even the ones who lost their money also lost it happily
and he himself lost 30 bucks that day! HAHA!!
oh, and i won back my money!!
10 bucks worth of coins! :D (i went home changing it with avon, cos i want my avon to have lots of coins :DD)
then went beach to watch the sunrise while listening to ghost stories
i had to admit that it was damn damn cold with strong wind before the sun is up
im like shivering
that had another tao pok session before heading to mac to eat breakfast and then listening to craps
was talking about our first impression of jun ming, the expressionless man, when we came in to ritz to work and the first time we see him
damn funny :D
then headed to pool before i left them at around 11 to go home
went home on bus 21 and bathe, shitted and brush teeth before heading to balestier to help buy yu sheng for today last day of chinese new year to lao
came back home is like 2, and went to sleep after awaking for 24 hours
was forced to wake up and had my dinner
so, i thought i would finish my facebook games and postings before going to sleep
tml still got the CCA camp, its 2 days and 1 night
and gotta report 8am in the morning.. SOOOO EARLY!!
well, i still gotta pack my bag later
so, shall end my post here, tata peeps!!~~~~

pictures of you...

maybe, maybe..
maybe this will be the first thing in my life that i had ever regret for life
i've regretted things in my life, but i've never regretted them for the whole of my life..
but this looks like something that i will regret for the rest of my whole life
i dont want.. but, it serve me right..
people says 'fate and destiny is decided my your own very hands, not by god'
now, i believed that..
but was i too late for that?
i dont know

but i saw the eyes, i saw the look in those eyes, the way it could have felt..
i could see, because i experience that kind of feeling before..
the looks, and those looks..

now im lost..
lost in the ocean of hell, i dont think i could ever get up
i sinked too deep into the ocean
but i will still stick to what i thought
i will still determine on
no matter what, if i ever would have to make a choice, i would make sure i dont become the extra calafei
but till then, i will still stick to what i've said
i will

here i am, i've return home from yet another day in loft
went to loft ytd for steamboat, to bid farewell to melicia for her attachment trip to England
then went to airport to send her off into the gates


this was taken during Rondeau XXIV

to my dearest retired treasurer,
take care and have a safe journey!! :)
you will be missed, and i will do my job well :)

ok, i dont think i could come out with a topic to talk about in my post now
so, i shall end my post her
tata~~

i hope, i hope..
but saying my hearts out here wouldnt be a good idea
there, i shall find a place to throw out my thoughts..

since then, i think i've lost something important in my life, and here i am
struggling to live without it
i realised i cant
and i dont think any humans can live without it too..

i have a million unspoken words to say
but the moment i saw you, everything seems so blank
sometimes i remembered, but i just couldnt find the right time to open my mouth
i could only stare at you, nothing would come out of my mouth

well, sorta had quite a day
ytd went loft after my cell bio paper
the paper (luckily) is kinda okay
not as hard as i ever thought
maybe can pass! :D
ok, went loft there and tried to sleep from 1 to 3 something
lying on the bed for like so long, but failed to sleep
somehow just cannot sleep
so, studied for a while
then had dinner at pizza hut with henry, jianshen, sihui and melicia
had quite a laugh there :)
then went back loft and i tried to sleep foor the second time
i told myself i will sleep at 10 and wake up at 1
so, i started cultivating the feeling to sleep at 9, but at 10 something i still couldnt sleep
so i went eating my instant noodles (apparently with a scissors, cos dont have fork)
then started studying until like 6 something
with coffee and green tea keeping me awake
then went bathe warm water!!
omg, its such a nice thing to be able to bathe warm water
LOVE IT!! :)
oh, and after that i really a bit tired cannot take it, so took a nap from 7 till 8
and then went out with jian shen to tackle our last paper
i went out 15 mins before the paper ended, reason being just nice i finish, and i feel like shitting
cos i know if i never shit and stayed inside, i wouldnt have the concentration and mood to continue thinking
so i decided to just pass up the paper and went convention centre to shit
and went back to loft
slept for like less than an hour and suddenly came awake for some reasons
then went eat with them at canteen 2 before going back loft to sleep again
this time i finally could sleep longer
woke up at 5 something going 6 and packed my bag before leaving loft to home
feels a little tired now, but i want to make sure i sleep at the right time, the time where i usually sleep

it wasnt the way i wanted this storyline to end
but i've learn to face reality
therefore, i didnt had that much disappointment that i would have before learning to face reality
but this isnt the end of everything
im prepared for the second volume of the book, where the story continues
where the journey starts again
im waiting patiently
im clinging on..

i really wish to turn back time
i want to feel those moments again
those were the finest moments that i ever had
they were the nicest parts
the parts where i couldnt have experience it now
but i know that i couldnt defy the law of physics
that i couldnt turn back time
so im gonna move on
im gonna create a world somehow
a world awaiting for you
for those finest moments to happen for the second time
trust me, i will
i will prove it with actions rather than words alone

every place has a memory..
i could never forget..
the good days, the good memories..
right where i am.. here..
always thinking of those days..
and today definitely is one re-memorable day..
except that its imagined in my mind..
imagine every single thing you see makes you think of a scene.. :))

how do i describe this..
its like an acceptance plus a rejection..
yes, its not even a logical sentence, even i couldnt make any logic about that sentence that i typed..
i understand half, the other half i didnt understand..
i couldnt get anything to make myself understand..
but i learned my lesson..
i've learn to accept reality (im not saying im giving up, never would i do that)
i've learn to see and think about things base on reality
i learned not to daydream too much..

well, im at loft now
sorta cold here, but i liked
i always liked the life of being at the loft
i dont mean i want to stay here forever, but once in a while, and i enjoyed a lot
the freedom to fly lose like a bird
having aircon in the room, turning the laptop on for as long as i want, warm showers..
feeling kinda joy of being alone, away from the world..
at least for now, i enjoyed it..

sometimes you get naggggg by parents, ask you do this do that
i personally dont liked, and i sometimes give them the face
ya, i know thats wrong, i've been trying to correct myself
imagine myself being a dad, and my child doing this to me, it would definitely be hurtful
sometimes we youngsters just want our private space and not disturbed
but everytime i thought of this.. its always comfortable on a part of your heart that parents are nagging at you..
its their nagging that makes you feel in place, feel home..
imagine one day when you get home and you suddenly found yourself alone..
just you and you alone and you have still a long years to come being alone
im not being foul mouth, but they are part and parcel of life that generally everyone will face
when that day happens, it will be your saddest day
u'll be kneeling down and say 'naggg at me please!' when u know its never gonna happen again
by then it would be too late
you'll have to readapt to life and bear with the pain of not having someone irritating your ears
saying grandmother stories to you
the stories of life when policemen are still wearing shorts running around
never miss those moments, enjoy them now while you can
dont fight back, smile back :)

wow, ok, mummy and daddy's watching chingay on the tv now
and somehow, i heard the happy birthday song being played
reminds me of birthdays ok, there were the memorable ones and the not so memorable ones
and im not referring to my own birthdays but celebrating people's birthday
but come to think of my birthdays for the last 16 years, the worst one was still when i was primary 6
on that day of my birthday, i was collecting my PSLE results
i went in happily, telling my mum that i would definitely do the same as my sis, getting 220 for my score and going damai sec
and even if no 220 also got at least 200
but i came out telling my mum that i got 188 for my PSLE score
and was scolded like hell for that
but i never regret getting that score
because getting into manjusri did develop me into this young adult here :)
the friends i made, the experience i got, and unforgettable things that i've encountered
and well, somehow i think myself as a quite clever, unique and special person
during my primary school days, i never liked myself and i always admire others
and i never liked my name
i was thinking: qi ping this name.. what a weird name is this? why my mum give me this name?
like the whole world very little people name qi ping and i just got the name
but now, i started to liked myself and my own name
i feel my name is so special and so unique
plus my surname, i think it makes me one of a kind :)
i dont think there are much people out there that has the surname HENG! :)
and even if they had, they would never had their chinese name as WANG
(in chinese, its written as 3 horizontal strokes and one vertical)
i think i had a friend who is name heng, but chinese he is huang instead
and my sec school got one more, but i dunno his chinese name is what
but i think im unique and special!! :)
and last time, i used to style my hair
i remember when i was in primary school, my style was right, left, right, then left parting :D
and when i say parting, its really parting, like u can see the one line of skin one
then when i was in sec school, the style was armani style
i put like damn lots of gel on my front to make it parallel to the ground :DD
and i always complain to my mum that i want to cut hair, cos my hair a while jiu long liao, then too heavy cannot style. HAHA!!
and and!! i remember when i was young, during my innocent period that time, i cut slope on my back
omg, that style really sucks man!
cos i (suspect) i have long neck, longer than average neck
and when i cut slope, my whole neck from the back was like expose.. omg....
then after that i rebelled, and never cut that style liao :D
well, on why i suspect my neck long is cause it looks long, feels tired easily, and when i grew long hair, my hair can go longer then what normal people can before getting caught by the DM
OH!! AND AND!! THIS ONE IS DEFINITELY A JOKE!!
U"LL LAUGH LIKE HELL!!
last time my side burn was... curled outside
i tell you! anybody who saw my hair curled out and knew me all laugh at me!!
thats why i never liked to take pictures when i was young

but now is totally different
i dont really care about my looks so much
cos i was thinking, if people should ever liked you, they should like you base on your personality, not the looks
looks are deceiving and they dont last
looks are first impression of people
onces you looked acceptable, you passed somehow
you dont need to look go to make girls melt
impressed them by personality and characteristic, thats the way!! :D

haha! so much about me, well, off i go for now!! tata!! :)

so much of what happened..
i want to be sure that im just paranoid
but i just couldnt master the courage to speak to you about any other thing else
i tried, and i failed, and now, i dont dare to try again..
anyway, just a sentence that i want to tell you
good luck for your exams :)

hmm, this one is from blogskin, apparently somebody edited it and posted it and i happen to find this image
well, lets talk about today, its been a fine day
but during the night this few nights, its never been a fine night
my bed seems to be drifting away from me
now when i lie on the bed, i no longer feel that my bed is comfy anymore
it just feels different
and i cant sleep during the nights
my legs arent behaving too!
they are just like.. too active
they cant stop moving!
normally i would clamp them between my bed and the wall,
but now it seems no use too
the spacing between the wall and the bed seems weird too
everything is like so so weird!!!
i ever tried sleeping at 9, but i flipped on the bed until 10.30pm, still cannot sleep..
i tried sleeping at 12 and 1am also, still cant sleep
everytime, without fail, i always end up flipping on my bed until 2 something or 3 then can sleep
i dont know why..
maybe is cause i daydream of too much stuff
but even if i daydream i will eventually sleep, not as bad as now
since a few days ago jiu start like that liao
sian..
the worst one was on the day of my biostats paper
i slept at 12, and its like 2 and a half hours later im still wide awake
then i woke up at 6 by my alarm, and i felt 2 things
first was that i dont feel that i did sleep much
second was that i dont feel tired
dunno why, just dont feel tired, but just plain lazy to get up and study
so i set my alarm at 7.30.
and when i wake up, i feel damn damn tired.
its like so screwed up!
tsk!

its been a week..
its like within one week, so many things happened
i dont know why
i dont know what you are thinking
in case you did read this, tell me, tell me what are you thinking
yes, its you, you, its you
dont keep me in suspense.. please..

When you had the enjoyable day of your life;
When it felt so great like no other;
When you felt no worries, no burden, no stress;
When you almost forgot what you had to do;
When Time seems to pass so fast, that you just lose track of it;
When you laugh so hard till you could never stop laughing;
When you think of those things that happen and daydream about it at times..

i saw that moments in you, in your eyes, in your expressions
those moments were never the ones with me
that moments, that place, its where you truly belong

nevertheless, i wont give up just yet, not till the last moments where all hopes are gone
i will continue to create that world
waiting for you to enter and settle yourself inside
i know its difficult, but i dont care
i dont give a damn about it
i will continue to stand behind you
watching you from the back
and this time, catching you while you fall
i will try till the very end..
to create a world just for you alone..

well, its been quite a day
im really quite grateful to my cassmates, stephen especially
for asking me to come to school early just to clear my doubts
although i know i never did well in the exams, but i am truly grateful for offering your help
i will work hard next sem
i will try my best to see chan sii pan yan more next sem
i think if i roughly calculate, i dont think i even accumulate looking at her for more than say 6 hours??
i spent all my lectures sleeping
all my tutorial eating, sleeping and daydreaming
so well, maybe next sem i will try my best to see her like.. hmm, accumulate up one day??
one week got like 3hrs lecture plus 1hr tutorial, so one week is 4hrs
lets say one week i just see her 2hrs, add up also got 24hrs ba? :D
ok, lets not be calculative
i dont think i want to discuss about my paper ba?
i dont even know what to reject, what to take to find to reject
parameter also not sure how to write..

ok, lets talk about some other things :)
hmm.. what to talk about neh? oh! im starting to getting to know avon! :)
she is just like right in front of me
and i think the dress she wore is more of like a shirt?? (ok, dont get me wrong, avon is NOT a living thing, its a bear! :D)
and i realise that i could actually strip her off her clothes.. oops, sounds kinda sick huh. TSK!!!
ok la, hmm.. lets describe more about my messy table
well, its a nice table, long one, and messy though
the left 3 cabinets is occupied by my mum, to put some candle stuffs
then the right 3 cabinets is totally mine
the first compartment is like 'WOAH!! SO MANY ___ ______ pens!!
(anybody saw me taking a pen before should know what pens im referring to)
like a few dozens of them man!!
and lots of other that i could actually take home with me :DD
the second compartment is spoilt, dunno how to explain in words on how is its state, anyway, inside only got like packets of tissue papers??
the third compartment? ok, its all damn rubbish stuffs :DD
cos i cant really put my paper and textbooks and notes inside because of its odd length and width
(ya lor! dunno how the designer design de, design dao so fail! tsk!)
then below is a box (i shall not say whats inside, its been like 3-4 years old??) and my bag ans files and laptop case and a one-side acer destop speaker? HAHA!!
then comes my table top
i shall not say much, let the picture speak for me! :)



haha! well, it looks ok right? u know why? cos i took the whole table
try zooming in and u'll be like 'OMG!!' HAHA!!
ok la, i will pack when i finish my exams :)
hmm, shall post till here ba! till next time! :)

yes, i feel like an idiot..
but i think if i ever was given another chance on how i should go about it, i would do the same thing over again..
i would choose the same path..
till now, i have never regret going through what i've gone

i've sink deep down the ocean
and its been deep now
i dont think i can get up
i wont even want to get up
i want to continue going down and down
till i find you
and like what i've said, i will.

well, managed to change my blog skin
and couldnt really think of nice music to change to..
and well, yup, its BLACK again, dont ask me why
i will only be peaceful and not thinking my blogskin isnt nice when its black in colour
other colours i will keep on doubting my skills in choosing
jiu jiao zhuo 'yan guang bu hao' ba, nicer word to explain it :)
well, actually the colour im most comfortable with and most liked will be black ba
so what about pink??
well, pink i would call it my naughty colour :)
normal pink i like, but what i love most is REAL HOT PINK!!! :)
its kinda nice colour isnt it?
and well, i dont think there is anything wrong like what little kids use to say that pink is a girly colour and guys having pink is gay
well, you could say that i have more female hormones in me than average guy, that i may agree with it
but im still a guy; a straight guy :DD
i think pink is a nice and cool colour!
dont you guys think so??

hmm, ok, so lets talk about something else, i actually thought of what my topic for my post today is
but i forgot it now..
HAA!! yea! pet society!
well, i dunno why im obsess with this game, but this game is truly cute and fun to play leh :)
every week got lots of cute and nice thing coming up
oh, and i love my pink cat and my orange cat!!
its so so so so nice!! :D

ahh well, tml is my biostats paper, i every had a flash thought over my head just now
that i dont go for the paper tml
but i thought that was a very wrong thought
at least if i go take the paper, i tried
like what people said, its always good to try and fail then to never try
oh, and it reminds me of my previous post.. to love and lost then never love
so, i think its the same
to try and fail than to never try!! :D
and maybe behind the sentence can write my n ame on it!!

better to try and fail than to never try at all - Qiping

HAHAHA!! cool right?? :DDD
omg, ok, dont sue me for any copyright or anything huh, its just for the fun of it

i realise my internet connection sucks to the core la
everytime give me loading page error
i think after my exams im gonna come out with a mini research on how to quicken my internet connection
at least get the most out of the kuku vodafone that im using
well,, dont laugh, but the max downloading speed that i got from my connection was 250kbps ONLY!!
that that was after using this download accelerator call flashget
normal download would be like 50plus kbps, if the thing happy then got 100pluskbps la
and torrent is another stupid thing la!
the torrent wont even start downloading
its like serious problem la
maybe if im able to chiong work for this holiday i can get a router??
well, and saying until work, im pretty determine to save money now
because i have a aim in mind on why i need to save money
school fees is only one of it :)

well, i shall post till here, till next time!! :)

i am determine to cut down on the number of unnecessary vibrations my phone makes when the holiday starts till that day :)