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ever wondered why?
i dont think i am the qiping i use to know 4 years ago
everybody went from worst to better, better to good, good to even better, even better to best
but me, i think it went backwards

i know my thinking is wrong, i dont wish to think it this way
i seriously think i have the wrong thinking in this
i really wish to go back to 3 years ago, to those thinking
the way i think of things..

its my fault, what i did, i deserve this
that is why i dont want help, i am the one at fault, i should be the be the clearing up this mess
i dont want to bother anyone, i dont want people to help me clear up my mess

i just feel.. so lost.. so lost so lost!!!

ok, i just went through the whole list of modules that im going to take in 3 years in NP with yuli just now
and i seriously think i made the wrong decision in my choice of course a year ago
im thinking whether i should change course next sem
cos i think i'll fail at least one module
and the problem with me is that i gave up studying bio 3 years ago, and now, everything came back to haunt
i didnt know why i chose this course in the first place
maybe i think too much about the outcome instead of the process
i want to advance in the field of forensics, thats why i chose this course
and i think i myself think too much about that that i forgot everything i study for 3 years will be like 80 - 90% bio stuff
seriously lost

sometimes, the beat thing to do is still to keep quiet and say nothing. keep everything inside to your own.
the more u try to say out, the worst the situation will get.

its 16 august, and im still in dreamland

plain and simple life VS a beauitful, colourful but complex life

choose between one

ok, shall blog
well, life's fair, i gain something, you lost something
if i had the money, i would rather lost that thing and start everything anew
seriously, things are like breeze; come, and go
nothing stays
thats why everybody like secondary school days, secondary school life, secondary school friends
thats why this particular thing in my life i call it my life, cos i dont want to look back
i only want to look forward
thats why it became my life, a life of hope and real happiness and the smiles, the hardwork, the improvement, the commitment, the enjoyment, the bright red heart beating, the bonds, the future
thats life
or at least, what i called MY LIFE
or my life for now
suddenly having the wish not to grow up, to remain in the way i am now
but well, life needs to go on
something needs to come eventually, and something needs to go eventually
get the most out of life, and live it
enjoy life to the fullest when you can. you dont know whats coming next

ok, so much craps.

ok la, post la post la, since i cannot sleep
what thing to post neh
oh, just now lo, cos mummy say outside our corridor got cat, but dubb wher, then after that i heard the cat meow meow de
and my family hate cats, so it becomes my duty to bring the cat down from the 12 floor to the first lo
but the cat not bad la, still like my fangers a lot, wna chase after ti, so i just just my fingers to make it walk until the lift
but then the cat keeep on want to rub against the wall
then the lift come and open the cat scared and dont want to go in, i carrry it then put it in then come out it also dont want, rush out of the lift like the lift got dog like that
and its like more than 3 tries la, even my earpiece also become my equipment to make the cat go in la
then bo bian, walk the stairs down lo
then the cat keep on rub against the wall, keep on buah buah buah dont want stop
from 12 floor go until 7 floor then the cat dont want go down le, keep on buah buah buah against the wall
then i manage to make it go down one storey by sayang it lo, then it come down, then dont want come down anymore, stuck at lvl 6
kuku de, then in the end bo bian, press the lift, then when the lift coming i carry the cat
then go in with it and put it down and pin him to the ground by pressing the body
when i carry it go into lift the cat like damn afraid like that la
used its paws to try to struggle free from my hand
then went down that time the door open and i just let my hand free then it like run until damn fast la, i inside really got dog wna chase it like that la
waa, i second time carry a cat la, luckily i manage to grab it la
then come home wash hand, sit down in front of com jiu sweating le, hias, dont need sleep le lo!

ok, lets post about this 2 days
i found myself self declaring my sickness completely cured
cos ytd i ate LJS, still remember, golden deal 2
and complaining on their knife not good enough, making me no mood to eat
but still eat finish anyway la :)
hmm, should say a happy birthday to gary although haven come la :D
err, so, ytd went out with fellow band mates to PS
played in the douby ghaut arcade first, then went to LJS to eat and play with gary's chicken :D
then went watch UP.
err, ok la, the movie not bad la, quite nice la :)
wasnt so boring la :)
i think that movie was the latest i've ever catch la, cos come out the escalator of PS not working anymore, all resting le
and then went to istana park to slack
hmm, think not bad la, then cab home cos need to help mummy with things
today morning wasnt much la, just open laptop and slack there lo
ya, and happy birthday singapore
NDP like more and more boring leh, but i heard night on the bare mountain :)
then still got what ah, nothing much la, just some interesting err... fireworks lo :)
and, nothing much, signing off here :)

ytd night i was so so so so happy that i shitted
the reason is that i haven been shitting for like very long
like a week like that
then ytd is one shot everything shit out, waa, feel damn great man! :D
should be ok by now le la, only my sound haven recover only and cough only
like that lo :)

ok, let me vent my anger
FUCK THE FEVER!!!
it went and come and went and come
WTF U WANT FROM ME!!
JUST GET OUT!!!!! N-O-W!!!

ok, it sucks like hell.
ytd night was a burning of 39.7
went to sponge myself with cold water
mummy helped me too
and then went to sleep at my study room, since bedroom damn damn cold
6 something wake up again, this time something not right
sat at the kitchen
feel like vomiting and shitting
so went to the toilet
shitted but never vomit, nothing to vomit
and sweated a lot
can say its like worst than running those kind of sweating
damn damn wet la, whole body some more
but sweating good la
bthen went to sleep again and woke up at 10 something to see doc
and the doc gave me antibiotics and some other medicine
lots man, and it cost like 51.30 when normally i only see for max 30 bucks
only had 50 bucks in my pocket, so went home and take the extra money to pay lo.
and then dont feel like eating
but still ate a small bowl of porridge and then my medicine
well, when i get well, the first thing i wna eat is.. ICE CREAM!!
cos got temptation for it now :(

ok now! i declare the whole Ngee Ann kena plague.
everybody seems to be having fever, and for me, its much much worst
serious sore throat, and guess what?
morning my right shoulder pain, then i went to sleep at 3 something and wake up at 6.
this time the pain spread down to my chest
breath in also pain, cough also pain :(
and i realise i haven been sick for quite long, and now this stupid thing come, worst daysssss of my life :(
and my stupid fever came back
the whole stupid sickness just makes me unable to go for my 4E2 class gathering cum entertaining apichaya in singapore.
saddededed