last 2 days,i remembered one thing
one thing that strikes me suddenly
i remembered how i was used to be given false hope the whole of this year.
everytime, as usual, then it became like my fault
everybody then starts seeing me differently, like im a bad boy
yea, part of it was my fault, but most of it arent.
now, i just want to try my best to avoid all those things.

well, its time to blog.
a week ago, i almost forgot the existence of my blog
until recently
lets start with the thing that i least wanted to face in life.
studies
well, first,
hows my timetable? everyone will ask
well, im giving almost everyone a different ans than they expected
i have a damn bloody relaing timetable
im taking only 4 modules this sem
one repeating module, one module is what im suppose to take last sem,
and 2 new modules
well, plus a events management IS module as well
so how am i faring in the week?
i would say, bad
im not one who would always approach people
im not one who's always that friendly
so well, its like living my life fearing each class i go to everyday
without people i know/know really well
i have to face every class with courage
to bear the stares people look at me with
yea, its weird
imagine a new guy coming to a class
everybody knows each other well
except me
nobody knows me and i dont know anybody
well, but i guess looking on the bright side,
i may be able to make more friends?
and maybe as the week goes by the fear would be gone?
who ask me not to study hard in the first place.
too bad!

well, i thought of an interesting question while i was in practical today
people say human used to be derived from monkeys right?
and the prokaryotes and eukaryoyes doesnt differentiate themselves instantly
homo sapiens and drosophila doesnt appear from no where.
so the question is,

" DOES EVERYTHING DERIVES FROM AN ORIGIN??"

lets take homo sapiens for example
they are said to be derived from monkeys
so the question is whether we really came from monkeys?
however, i heard a very good comment from my band section mates

"IF WE ARE TO DERIVE FROM MONKEYS, THEN WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO SEE THE METAMORPHOSIS EVEN NOW!"

yes, thats it, if it takes million of years for a monkey to become a human, then we should be seeing the process like now!
there isnt really any reason that i can think of.
one 20%human looks and 80% monkey looks will will mate and form offspring?
they cant be rejected due to their face since humans are able to form
there must be succcessful matings occuring.
well, maybe when i grow up i can find the answer??
who knows?
maybe you are looking at a blog of a future mad scientist with Einstein's hair!
well, FAT HOPE!