well, im sort of feeling being a dragg to everyone and disturbing other people's life.
so, i shall post what i want to say here

well, one good thing that i think went well today was: I BOUGHT A NEW SLIPPERS FINALLY!!! :)
its after like months and months of all talk no action, i finally bought it

this is how the story goes
since my classmates all jio me to seoul garden to eat after my last paper, i decided to dress more formally
actually i wanted to wear jeans (luckily i didnt) plus a formal top
then i think, aiiyaa, lazy la, so just wear normal
then decided to actually wore shoes instead of slippers like i usually do
then when our paper all finish already,, it rained heavily
by he time we get to the bus stop, my shoes were all damn damn wet
and i feel a bit gao weh with it
so when i went to taka with them, i decided to buy a new pair of slippers
in the end went to new urban male to buy (yeah, you guessed it) a black slipper
minutes before i bought im really feeling a little itchy and awkwardness all around inside my shoe
and, well, after that was blah blah blah blah blah~~
i can go on talking for a thousand word essay, but lets stop here
in the evening i went to visit my dad in the hospital
yea, why he went to the hospital? long story.
and while sitting down beside his bed, i looked diagonally across and saw this man
from my view, i can really see that his days are sorta.. numbered, sadly to say
he was on oxygen mask
then i actually thought to myself: what will my life be like if one day i get admitted into the hospital?

surely, i wont want my mum to come and visit me regularly, she've got better things to do
i definitely wont be clinging and dependent on my mum
i will hope she come visit me less often since im big enough to actually take care of myself
and if i had no injuries in my legs and can walk i think i wont be in bed the whole day
i will end up walking around the hospital, finding some nice scenery place where i can sit down and enjoy and think of things. :)
best to have someone to talk to, but i wont want myself to be too reliable and dependent
so, i shall skip that
having someone to actually eat dinner with me smiling, okay, skip that too
for some of my friends to visit me randomly?
that would be nice, to have people to actually kill my time and where i could talk cock
and well, many many more, half of them which i prefer to skip

so what if im in those kind of seriously state like inside intensive car or dependently relying on oxygen mask?
well, if i've got the energy left in me, i think within 10 days some wires that are connected to me will break off
reason? i cant stay still
and well, i will be seeing people visiting me while i grasping for breathe?
well, lets not think about it
one day when this happens i will know what will be life inside

there, monday im going for injection for my F1 work. :)
and also bring that indian for interview?
well, lets see how ba. :)