i guess there isn't a second place for me to throw out my thoughts
my mind is exploding, but i just couldn't find someone to talk to about
you may be one, but i can't bring myself to talk about it to you
it's just not right everywhere
i guess sometimes, that's life..

there, i completed 3 papers and having the last one to go
wednesday will be my last paper
how am i feeling?
well, not so bad
neither am i feeling very excited like what i will tell people
reason? i don't know

i truly believe that for each decision that you choose in life,
it closes one path of life, but at the same time, it always open the other path for you to walk on
there is always a path that leads you further, just that its never a same path as others

Sometimes giving up in life makes you find something even better to cure your misery
by giving up, you closes a path that you want to go and at the same time, open another path that cure you out of misery

then there is another one

sometimes when you choose not to give up and continue bearing the misery, you get something in life that you wanted to achieve
by not giving up, you close a path for any other chances of pulling you out of your misery life and towards a even better life than now, but at the same time, you opened a path that you always longed to cross, a path that will too, cure your misery.

there, the last one

same scenario, you chooses not to give up and continue bearing the misery, however, you dont get what you want in the end.
by not giving up, you closed paths for any chances of pulling out of misery and maybe towards a better life, then you failed, another path closed for you.
there, you sat there alone in the corner, unsure of what to do, aimless and nothingness.
will you believe that a path will open for you?

life, how weird can it get?


recently, this sentence kept appearing in my senses
people say it, people wrote it, i hear it, i see it and i thought of it.

"If you really love someone, let it go. if it comes back to you, its yours. if it never, then it never was yours in the first place"

will you agree with this sentence?

i've been debating with myself twice in my life
recently, and way before
recently, i used myself and my current life as an example to the statement
i realise i couldnt agree with this statement
i know the problem why and totally know what i should do in life
to give up on it
but i couldnt
in the end, i have to lie to myself by rebutting this sentence with others i've seem to seen it in my life

"If you really love that someone, then you shouldn't even be letting go or think of letting go."
"Chances doesn't come as and when it likes"
"Miracles are created by humans themselves"
"You'll never know what will happen to you tomorrow"

there always have 2 ends to things, opposites of life, an angel and a devil, a hero and a villain.
they co-exist with one another, without the other, they can't be what they are.


i wish i had better skills in entertaining people and making people laugh.

i feel like creating a mechanism that could could see and access your thoughts immediately.
i wont mind sacrificing one eye for it.
i just want to understand you more and what you are thinking inside
open it up and grant me the access, will you?