i owed everyone a sorry.
here, i apologize.
sorry.
its my fault.
if im blame for your poor grades, or your bad studying environment, i will take it
i have to admit, its my fault
if i had not been lazy, this would not happen

bus journey is the best way for self reflection
i had mine when i was in the bus just now
it made me having no mood for anything
i guess, my blog is the only place i would dare to throw out everything thats in me

i was thinking of how responsible i'd been for the pass year
i wasnt good
i had never fulfill any of my responsibilities as anything..
the responsibility of being a treasurer, a leader, a student, a son..
non of that i've accomplished to a minimal requirement
wondering aimlessly everyday, having no aim in life
i dont want that life..
but i never know what to do with myself, how to push myself.
i wanted something fresh in my life where i can look forward to every tomorrow..
but thats more of an excuse..
its no difference from waiting for money to drop down from the sky
now im lost..

so dont feel like it anymore..

i want a person whom i can throw out everything thats in my mind almost everyday..
without even feeling the guilt that im disturbing her life..
without even having the worries that i will become his irritant..
i dont like the feeling of keeping things inside anymore..