Dreams..

i realise the problem in me
if i could anyhow catch one person inside my poly campus and ask him/her what he/she wants to be,
i bet out of everyone could give me an answer.
but i couldnt
i remember on quite a lot of occasion when different people asked me 'what you want to be when you grow up'?
i couldnt answer

everything you do has a purpose and a reason that you will do
you eat cos you are hungry
you wack the person cos he guai lan and so on
but i asked myself 'why do i study?'
i couldnt come out with an exact answer
normally people would have said something like 'i wna get a degree in this area and become a boss and earn lots of money'
i will give the same answer too..
but the problem isnt here. the problem is with 'this area'
what area do i want to focus on?
which area exactly do i want to profession myself on?
i dont know
when there is no reason to do something that you are doing right now, that something becomes a burden
same as love.
when its gone, all thats left is burden and burden.

its a fact that i dont have BIG dreams in my life,
a dream big enough to have take over my life like a drug
i never had one

so hows my life? pretty predictable huh?
no interest in studies, taking studies as a burden instead
shows no interest in life
no matter how much intelligence i gain, its of no use
a person without dreams is like lost, wild cat