just came back from CCA camp
well, had quite a lot of fun there, made lots of new friends
they teach you on how to understand yourself better and what kind of leader you exactly are
and i realise i am a D type of leader
well, maybe i shouldnt be so happy about being that kind of leader, but dunno why, i just seems so happy i am that kind
i just find it unique in me :)

ok, so, what have i achieve during this 2 days of camp?
hmm... actually i also dunno
i only know i made quite a number of friends
and i've enjoyed all the games i've played
and that i have enjoyed my stay in there
so, what else did i accomplish during the camp?
oh! i watched 'we were soldiers'
damn nice movie! totally loved it!! :)
and i think next time i can reuse some games that i've played for rondeau camp maybe??

well, lets post some random things on my mind right now
you know why retards are much happier?
here's the answer given by me
its because they dint think so much
they live their life every single day to their fullest, without any worries
and again, to reverse the statement, it actually mean this;
thinking too much everyday will just make you feel more sad, depress, stress and more stress
i think im one who thinks too much
but sometimes i wish it was because i think too much and not because i was right in my thoughts
sometimes i was right in my thoughts, but certainly i dont wish for this time
ok, i think im drifting away from the topic more and more
why i would think of this is that actually when i doont think of my responsibility of my role in band, i would only have one task in hand to do
but when i think more and more, im starting to have even more and more things that i need to do
its like im doing nothing but finding troubles for myself
sometimes, i dont carry out my own responsibilities.. i push them aside
i am one person who dont carry out his responsibilities as a student to work hard and study hard and excel
but i could say that im one who knows that whatever responsibilities i have, i would classify them under things that feel important and impactful on my life, and things that are not so important to me

i think i will start work tomorrow
for now, i just wna rest..

it seems that i could never reach you..