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well, this is the image that was in my mind at 8 0'clock this morning
cos ytd i told myself i'll sleep at 11pm, and wake up at 8am, just nice a 9 hours sleep
so, i went to bed at 10.20pm, giving myself 40mins to daydream before i sleep
and somehow i slept before 11, and i wake up damn early, which i dunno what time too
and then i was flipping on the bed, waiting for the alarm to ring
and when the alarm finally rang at 8, i pressed it and then thinking whether i wna wake up so early

one side of my mind was like 'HEY! WAKE UP!! U HAVEN FINISH YOUR BIOSTATS REVISION AND U LEFT 3 DAYS TO STUDY FOR SO MANY CHAPTERS! AND ITS STUDYING FROM SCRATCH LIKE A DUMMY U KNOW!!'

and the other side of my mind was like 'aiiyaa, let me sleep a while la, a while only. must have enough sleep then can concentrate in my studies ma. if not later i study halfway then feel like sleeping how?'

ya, so, its obvious which side of my mind i followed..
and i wake up at 1115, went to brush teeth and on my com until now
and im like a bit lost on how to start on my stupid biostats
i wish there was an underground tunnel that i can go into to lock myself from everything and concentrate my mind on biostats and biostats only
i realise that from young, i have a habit of daydreaming when im studying..
study until halfway and all sorts of things and events will come and disrupt my studying mindset
then i'll be like smiling to myself and my mum will be like 'eh, thinking of girl huh'
tsk!
ok la, say about ytd, ytd went to my ah ma house, then went downstairs where there is this lady who know how to read cards to see about your life
i was told she was related to guan inn
so, my parents had their readings read, and me and my sis thought we would join in the fun
well, i would say, people who knew me long knew my family background
and most (or maybe all) never knew how i thought towards it
sometimes you choose not to believe, but sometimes you just cant
sometimes you chose to be revolutionary, but sometimes you just have to kneel yourself in front of the 'unchanged fact that you want to change'
when she read my cards, she immediately says this 'your results this year is damn bad'
then my sis was like 'hoho, your exams coming'
and she was like 'your exams haven come, but im telling you now, go do something about it'
and she told me some other bunch of things too
well, before she read about my cards i already knew most likely im gonna be retaking at least one module, so that info coming out from her mouth dosent really impressed or shocked or hurts me
i think it will be more like telling my mum i advance for me ba

well, shall end my post here! :)

will giving a promise be better??