well, this is actually one of the albums that i downloaded today
and i suddenly thought panpipes is nice :)
dunno why, just suddenly feel like listening to panpipes
and i remembered my mum has the album, i used to listen when i was young when my mum played it on the player
and i loved it very much..

and well i didnt really study much today
i know, i've failed..
and i dont know if i had promise anyone that i would study hard, but looks like im never gonna make it
i am sorry..
and i knw its no use saying sorry
im not giving up now, but im just facing the reality
its a cruel fact, but im seriously sure that i couldnt make it for this particular module and need to retain for that module
i choose to stop bluffing myself, saying that im gonna make it and i will
im no longer the hardworking and smart qiping
im lazy qiping now
the lazy bum bum who always sleep during lectures and not doing tutorials
until now, i haven even start on the important chapters
and when i say i haven start and haven study, i meant it
the reason why i could score well in my secondary school days is because teachers nagggg the same concept over and over again
its hard to even push those things out of my head
and now in poly, i'll have to be the one nagging at myself, which i never done so

before i came to poly, i aimed to get a good gpa for university, in particular NUS
i accepted the challenge to get into NUS medic
and when my first sem was over, i told myself, forget it
im never gonna make it
then i told myself, if i work hard, maybe can get into NTU, better than nothing
now the second sem pass, and im gonna tell myself this:
go on go on, go on daydream, and dream on..

actually i thought of this: why should there be higher education after secondary school?
why cant we straight away go find work and start learning from our work place?
well, not a bad idea huh, another dream..
DREAM ON BOY!!