well, what to say.. another day passed..
i realise that i have a higher level of tolerance for cold showers now
previously i need 5 mins to adapt to the water, slowly wet myself with the coldness of the water from toe to head
now, i can simply increase my speed
and well, i would say, it keeps me from wasting water
and just now when i bathe, i suddenly saw one millipede crawling on the floor, luckily i saw and spray it to the drain, if not next time i would never dare to shit in my house toilet again
i remembered there was once i saw a flying cockroach in the toilet
and the next day when i shit, i never shit in peace..
im like constantly imagining the cockroach suddenly flying out from the toilet bowl (the area where the water flushes out, cos its like hidden from view) after waking up from the smell of my shit.
ok, thats too imaginative
ok, well, say until insects, when someone asked me about what insects i scared of.. i never knew how to reply in short sentence
well, actually, im generally ok with insects who cant fly and is quite a safe distance form me
as for insects who can fly, i would pray it dont fly towards my direction
but generally, when insects get near me, im scared of everyone of them
somehow, the thought of that kind of feeling when somethings is crawling on your body isnt really that normal huh
(and well, my insects generally refers to those visible to the eyes and about minimum 5cm long de, definitely not insects like ants =.=)
the worst scenario i had ever imagine was the big big hairy hairy (and maybe with stripes) spider
OMG! imagine the mao touching you and as the spider crawls on your legs, the mao itches you and the legs pokes you on the skin slightly.. EEEWWWWWWW!!!
omg.. ok, dont think about this already
lets talk about something else

well, recently.. ok, not recently, its only yesterday
yup, ytd i joined an interesting facebook fan page
its called The spaces between my fingers were created so that yours could fill them in
well, i sorta like this :D
it seems unique, special and in a sense, different from other facebook fan page
dont you think its cool??
hey, ok, i think today my post damn random la..
before i sign off, i shall present a quote to u guys

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." -St. Augustine

well, i dont know how other people think
but to me, i seriously want to learn from this quote..
when you never express your love, it becomes a burden in yourself
it weighs down your heart
you think of the same person everyday over and over again
you become a man with no balls
because you dont dare to tell the person 'I Love You' this 3 words
for the reason that you know this person is important to your life and you cant afford to lose her
you think of the worst scenario
that if the person rejects you, there would be silence between the both parties
and you know you dont want that to happen
because she meant much to you
too much to lose
not for the fact that you cant live without her, but for the fact that you feel incomplete without how she used to look at you, treat you and smile at you before you said 'I Love You' this 3 words to her
smiles would be gone
subsequent eye contacts would make the whole situation awkward
and people would be behind your backs talking about you and smiling in front of you
somehow, there is a segregation between both..

ok, still typed another chunk when i say im ending this post 5mins ago
well, end here! :)

you remembered how we used to be before? in the beginning? how we communicate, how close we become?
i dont think so..